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Fresh.....I feel refreshed....

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 12:02:14 GMT

Its 10.10 pm now.......

I finally managed to get some time for myself.....

After a wonderful camp getting a fresh encounter with Him....I feel that it was the timing was right....

After all that has been said and done....

What I really need is just some precious time with Him....

What should a person do to make up for his own silly mistakes?

Apologize???Give up???Strive on???

Oh God I really do not know what else to do...

Why is it that when a person tries to change and he gets told off for being hypocrite?

Why is it that people cant forgive and forget??

Not given a second chance but instead gets more firing??

God I've given my all to You....

Laid down my burdens....

Surrendered my all to You....

Now all I ask is that You come and create in me a clean heart...

Let me live like how You would want me to...

Hear my cries oh God...

Take away my pain....my sorrows....

I love You Lord....

In You I trust.....

Its 10.27 pm now.....

I feel that things are going to be different from now on....

Whether its going to go my way I wouldn't know...

But I pray oh God that it will be Your way....

Guide me....use me....

I feel that I've fallen so far that its going to take a lot to make it better....

Give me strength....strength to go through what lies ahead....

Fresh....something fresh......

Here I Am....

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 17:40:55 GMT

Its 3.51 am right now.....its the 23rd of April....

Yea its camp day.....I am supposed to be resting....

Its been a long day yesterday....setting up the camp site together with a wonderful bunch of committee members...

But still I am not sleeping.....

I am excited for this camp....being able to serve together with my wonderful co-commandant..Mei Yun.....

But yet....I am still distracted and distant....not really focusing on what i really need to....

Not giving my all as I am supposed to....

What is really bothering me??

Well I guess I know what it is.....or more like I am not willing to acknowledge it....

The question I am faced with is that....Why cant 2 persons...who love each other so much be together???

I cant seem to find an answer for this question....

Why does it have to all have to suck when it seems like everything is going fine and well???

Why cant love overcome all obstacles???

I guess the movies were all crap.....

What am I to do now???

Its 4.00 am now.....camp is today.....

I need rest.....I know what the next 3 days will have installed for me....

I am asking You Lord.....come touch my life once again.....

The Rhema word for this camp is Fresh.....

A new fresh encounter with God....

Is this word for me?

Or am I just thinking?????

This is my prayer.....

I lay myself at Your feet.....I am asking You wont You come and meet me....

I cannot do it on my own....I cannot do it all alone.....

Here I am....with my arms open wide....

Wont You come inside....come and fill this empty heart of mine....

I need a fresh touch from You.....I need Your love......

Lord please help me......

This is my prayer.....

I will make this my prayer for the next 21 days of this Partnership Prayer....

I believe in You.....I give You my all.....

My burdens....my suffering....

............

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 09:31:57 GMT

Cover On My Heart by Guy Sebastian

Everyday feels all the same
9 to 5 gets so mundane
But something breaks with just one glimpse of you
I would stare so long awhile
Trying to tell you with my eyes
I didn’t say a thing I thought you knew

I wish I never did assume, coz

Chorus
I was gonna tell you today
I even wrote the words I would say
I finally found the courage
But now it’s too far
It took me all this time to reveal
What everything about you does to me
So tell me why did I keep a cover on my heart

Spend all night trying to explore just
How I’d tell you I adore ya
And how I’m moved by every word you say

But today there’s an empty space
I’ve found you gone without a trace
I wish that I coulda told you yesterday

Chorus

It feels like my point of existence
Has vanished with you in the distance
Whatever it takes I’ll persist
Till I see your face again

....

when i heard this song...

i was like wow.....its awesome.....

reli reli awesome.....

lurv it!!!

* W A R N I N G *

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 17:29:20 GMT

THE NEWEST ADDITION TO MY FAMILY....

Me Ipod.....

It's no ordinary Ipod...

It's an Ipod that know's how to pose...

Once again...posing....

Now...for a close up shot....

Even better....an angle shot....

Well I've got more....

But till next time....

Enjoy....

W A R N I N G

Sun, 27 May 2007 13:25:49 GMT

All in a days work....

some pictures taken on Sunday....

check it out!!!

Uncle mike said it was too formal...

so therefore this was the other option....

look at Rae...so sweet looking...just doing this for GOD!!!

well....posers.....nothing much to say about them tho...hot CHICKS???

guess who's???

what are the girls DOING???

anyway this are the results of my new baby....

what do you guys think??

i'm open to comments n suggestions on how to IMPROVE!!!!!

hope to post up more...WHEN I AM FREE!?!?!?!?

PiCTurE uPdATe!!!!!

Fri, 18 May 2007 11:48:57 GMT

This is my latest toy....Nikon D50...

Just got it recently la....its really nice la..no regrets at all!!!!

I'm so glad my parents allowed this...even though it cost them heaps of money...they love me..:)

it was a good package...came with the body, 28-80mm lens, 70-300mm lens, camera bag and heaps of other accessories...

I am so happy with it!!!

Took some really good pictures with it but honestly....still not that good with it...still learning though....

any tips on how to become good at it...???anyone???

well...i can say i am very blessed cause my parents are like suffering to support me so that i can study over here...

and what do i do???

ask them for more stuff.....like a bass guitar...a camera....(i wanted to ask for a car la...)

hehehehe....well....i am really appreciate all that they have done for me la...

THANK YOU MUMMY DADDY!!!

love the camera!!!

many many pictures of my LOVELY roommate....

will post them soon la....

True Love...

Sun, 13 May 2007 14:09:02 GMT

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return"

These were the words that said in the show Moulin Rouge.

That is one of the greatest love story ever told..

Besides the story bout Jesus dying for us la...

That's NUMBER 1!

But I think that it is so true...

There is a song in the show where it says:

Never knew I could feel like this,

Its like I've never seen the sky before,

Want to vanish inside your kiss,

Everyday I'm loving you more and more,

Listen to my heart can you hear it say,

Come back to me,

And forgive everything,

Seasons may change winter to spring,

But I love u till the end of time,

Come what may, come what may,

I will love you,

Until my dying days.

That is what true love is is all about...

Facing all odds together, hand in hand....

Never giving up on each other...

Through thick and thin....

Be by each others side...

That's what love is about...

True love...

Hello hello hello....

Wed, 09 May 2007 10:06:39 GMT

guess who's back...
back again...
hehehehe...

well i m not goin to say much....

jus let the pics do the tokin...

well....comments ANYONE....wat bout u ZIE CHONG???
isnt he CUTE???i think he is SOOOOO cute!!!

as u can see this is Lok Ing...she did the offering...
so short huh....oni slightly taller den da pulpit...
so good....

she looks normal...

reli???....think twice....

think thrice....i GUESS NOT!!!

look....wat a POSE>>>!!!!unbelievable!!!
cute pose tho....
anyway...he spoke well....
*crowd cheers*

this is wat we had after the meeting.....looks nice??
looks disgusting???
tell me what you think!!!!
its called AB...which stands for abortion....

last but not least....
special effects...
so u think i photoshoped it or is it ryan's GHOST!!!

WeLComE bACk !!!!

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 14:58:08 GMT

*crowds cheers*
*standing ovation*

welcome back Ben...to ur xanga blog.....
its been like wat???MONTHS????since u last posted something....
anywei...
BACK TO U BEN.....>>>>>>

hello all...
its been awhile huh....
hehehe...well i guess its jus dat i've been busy wif so many things....
before i start writtin nonsense...I would like to formally thank my committee along with my partner in crime WAN MEI YUN....for the great JOB done for the last MAMAK NITE!!!
(for those who missed out....TOO BAD!!!!)

ok now to the nonsense stuff....
well...i guess i am kinda sinner la...but its fun....
this sin is addictive like u noe wen u r addicted to drugs...
well i m not sayin i m addicted to it la..or neither am i DOING DRUGs....
but wat i m sayin is dat its ADDICTIVE la..
its called EBAY-ing....

first let me tell u dat stuff i am plannin to buy from EBAY....>>>>>KNIVES!!!!
not ordinary knives...those hunting knives and all la...(if u r a knife enthu like me den u'll understand)

let me show u some pics...

if u noticed the 1st item...its a short katana...
its oni 20 aussie...
the 2nd item is a hunting bowie knife....
it can be used almost for ANYTHIn...
the 3rd item is jus for keeps....its cool tho....(dun u think so?)
the final item is the BOMB!!!
its a real commando hunting knife with the works...
a survival kit in the handle n a compass on the end of the handle...
the total length of the knife is 15 INCHES!!!
how sick is dat???

anywei....wat does the public think??
am i sick to have such a hobby??
well....i LIKE n dats all dat matters....
hehehe
is there any1 out there like me besides my roommate....
hu indulge in such sinful n dangerous hobbies???
pls call me on +61433893301...
ahaha

anywei i m jus bloggin for the sack i've not blogged for a long time....
sorry ppl..
take care ya'll....

Have u heard???

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 23:28:03 GMT

Have you heard of Vincent Chong...

well for those who dun noe him...

here he is...he is from our church back home...FGA....

childhood fren of mine...

tell me does he sing well